Saturday, August 17, 2013


I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD! –Psalm 27:13-14

We are sort of in a wait-and-see mode as far as the doctors are concerned. There is nothing that can be done to better the situation. The issue is not a pregnancy-related issue. It is not an issue that has to do with Alicia’s health. There are moments that it is discouraging to not be able to do anything to help. But God is using this to strengthen us and prepare us for the future.

 These verses from Psalm 27 put words to how we have felt the last few days.

There are moments when I feel like giving up. There are moments when I feel like drooping my head in despair. I’ve said to Alicia that I can’t imagine facing this without the Lord. That is exactly what these verses say. Our faith in the Lord is what provides hope for the future. We trust that the Lord will show us His goodness in the days, weeks, months, and years to come. The verse says that we will see His goodness in the land of the living. No matter the outcome, we trust the Lord will show us in this lifetime His goodness.

 Mom always asked us kids, “How’s your courage?” At times, these days, our courage is not good. When we look at our circumstance it overwhelms us. The situation is impossible. But when we just stop, wait, and look at the Lord He gives us good courage and he strengthens our hearts.

 So we face the days ahead doing our very best to wait on the Lord. All we can do is wait. And that is the best we can do because that is when God gives strength.

 Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement. You are helping us bear this burden.


  1. I love you Mark. Thanks for sharing.


  2. Showing courage in the face of adversity and giving glory to God for your strength in a hopeless situation is a powerful testimony that will not go unnoticed in this world and in the church. There is so much despair in this broken world. Trusting in the Lord during the trials we face is the only hope for joy in a helpless situation. I agree with you for sure: without the Lord, such a heavy burden would be unbearable and would break one's spirit. But the Holy Spirit is unbreakable, He seals us for the day of redemption (Ephesians 4:30). You and Alicia are great parents because you are not giving up on or abandoning your child despite the physical ailments.

  3. Dear Mark & Alicia!
    Carrying your Burden to the Father tonight <3 You were huge examples in my life during our NBBI days & still your strength and dependence on God speaks into my life!

  4. Love you both very much, you are a blessing to my heart.

    Psalm 73:24-26
    24With Your counsel You will guide me, And afterward receive me to glory. 25Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. 26My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.…

  5. I appreciate your honesty. God is exalted through your transparency.

  6. Mark and Alicia, thank you for sharing this very raw and heavy burden. Thank you for your testimony of faithfulness. Know that we, as many others continue to hold you up in prayer. You are not alone.